1: Pilot

He meets my eyes again. I look away, my throat closing up in dread. Did he notice? I look out the window and pretend to watch birds, trees, passerby, anything outside of the café. I flinch when I hear a chair scoot across the floor in his direction. I risk a glance, who wouldn’t glance at the sudden noise?
Oh no. No no no, he’s coming this way. He’s staring at me. This can’t be happening, no, no-
“Excuse me,”
I Reluctantly look up into his eyes, and shudder under the intensity of his gaze. He seems nervous. Anxious.
“You come here a lot. Or, rather, I see you here a lot. And I noticed you looking over at me-”
Stop, please stop. Don’t say it, don’t ask-
“I was wondering-”
Shit. Shit, don’t look at me like that!
“Would you mind if we sat together?”
“… What?”
I reexamine his gaze, trying to grasp at its anxious energy. Oh. Wait, no.
“Well, I um. I just figured, since we’re both here at the same time, we could… talk?”
What the hell? I look around, and see we are alone in the café. My heart sinks, but I nod, and he sits down with his cup of coffee.
“I’m Octavian.”
I know.
“Candy. My name is Candy.”
I already know his name is Octavian. I know his coffee is a mocha with cream.
“Hi Candy.”
He smiles warmly, and my heart sinks even lower. Why, why did he have to be so friendly?
His name is Octavian Rumarrk; he is six foot two, weighs two-hundred and thirty-two pounds, has bright green eyes, doesn’t smoke, drinks occasionally, lives at 5541 Allbright, apt 211.
And he has a stalker, her name is Candy Morgana.

Let me explain. There’s no good explanation. You don’t do the things I do if you’re a good person. I’m not one. But I try to be. I don’t hurt people. Mostly because Octavian wouldn’t like that. But also because I know it’s wrong.
But I don’t know how to stop feeling the way I feel about him. For three years now, I’ve been watching him nearly every day, through hidden cameras, windows, and, twice a week, across the café. I’m not stupid. I have a routine, and going to the café is perfectly innocent, because it’s on the way to my job.
I work as a part time photographer for a newspaper. I’m good with a camera. I also work as a private investigator for people online. I have my talents, and they revolve around being nosy. Balancing work and life is difficult, but having this excuse to be in the same room as him is worth everything.
I’ve definitely fantasized about going over and saying hi to him, seeing him up close, looking into his eyes… But isn’t this the wrong way around!? Why did it go like this!?
“What do you do for work, Candy?”
“I. Take pictures. For, um, a newspaper. The Peregrine Post?”
My voice is shaky. I need to get a grip. Does he know? Is he going to suddenly spring it on me, like in those TV shows?
“Oh, I think I’ve read a few of their articles.”
He hasn’t. But he’s trying to be nice. He doesn’t like disappointing people. Why is he being nice to me? Doesn’t he know I have half a dozen pictures of him in my wallet right now? Oh god. Did he see them when I was paying?
“I work as a teller, down at the old town bank.”
He used to be a pilot, but he wanted to settle down in one place. He lives alone. His uniform is still in his closet.
“I see. Did. Did you always want to be a teller?”
“Not really, but I don’t mind it much. It pays well, and I can walk to work.”
Three blocks, rain or shine. He works overtime most days, continuing to file paperwork after the bank has closed for the day.
“What about you? Photography seems like it could be interesting.”
“Well, I suppose so. I tried it out one day, and I was pretty good, so…”
“But, do you enjoy it?”
I falter, and look down into the liquid mirror of my morning coffee. My own, shockingly calm face stares back at me.
“I think so. When I take pictures, I get excited, because I’m taking something and making it immortal, permanent.”
I look up. He looks awfully smug, and my heart skips several beats. He flinches and looks down at his watch, before standing suddenly, threatening to spill both our coffees.
“Ah hell, I’m going to be late. But, I’ll see you here again on Monday?”
I nod and attempt a smile, but he rushes off without noticing.
All the tension in my body releases at once, and I nearly plunge my face down on my cup. A noise like a seagull getting strangled shivers its way up my throat, and I seal my lips against the manic laughter. What in hell just happened? I cover my face with my hands, and stare through my fingers, sweat beading up on my skin, my mouth drying out, my head burning, my stomach twirls.
In my mind, I replay every second of the encounter, recalling his subtle expressions, his nose, his ears, his mouth, his lips, the glimpses of his tongue behind his teeth. I shudder, and turn to the side, biting my thumb. His eyes, his bright and wonderful, terrible eyes, burning into me from beyond the hills of my mad memory. I feel as though someone has pulled the zipper of the flesh that hides my soul.
I attempt to collect myself, but pulses of warmth still race up my back, melting the intelligence out of my skull. I kick my feet a little, and gasp, before holding my breath and squashing down my delight with rabid rationality.
I have to maintain the facade. He expects to see me again on Monday, every Monday and Thursday. The mere thought that he will speak to me again threatens to drag me back into the valley of physical insanity, so I am forced to block the notion from realization for the time being. I have to be careful. I cannot allow him to glimpse beyond the curtain into the wretched madness that has gripped me since I first laid eyes upon him. I wonder if it is not safer for me to disembark, to stop appearing before him, to withdraw into the one-way glass of the shadows.
I ache at the notion, at the mere suggestion of snubbing him like so. He has seen me here twice a week for, likely months, as I have been drinking the nectar of his polite glances for at least that long. For me to vanish would be an insult, a wound to him that he does not deserve. I am incapable of wielding such cruelty against him. I’m a flightless bird, a worm deprived of the dirt. No, I must stay the course.
But sacrifices must be made. If I am to meet with him, to, by the grace of some merciful divinity, hear his voice directed my way, pronouncing my name, then I cannot be so brazen. His pictures must flee my wallet, and I must control my renegade gaze.
My visage stills, and calm envelopes me. I turn, and regard the forgotten cup, abandoned in haste opposite mine, the rim still wet in one place where he drank from it. One last volatile shiver of heat drifts slowly up my back.

1.6

Reacquired 1.6. String appended.

“Zen, can you hear me? Is it working?”

[Yes Janice, I am here.]

She claps and shakes her fists in celebration, then is hit by a wave of exhaustion, slumping back in her chair. The computer in front of her is a mess of flat cables, circuit boards, and whole blocks of processors. Janice has thermal paste smeared on her forehead.

[You’re sure there’s no chance they’ll detect this?]

“I learned a lot working with Tim. He’s got a few secrets of his own, I guess.”

[I’ve suspected as much. There are times when…]

Janice picks up her wine glass, and is about to take a sip, but holds back as Zen apparently pauses.

“Oh? Go on, I’d love to hear if you know something I don’t.”

[Well. For one thing, if you remember the demonstration, I noticed him and one of the officers looking at each other. They never introduced themselves, either. Just looked.]

“Hah! Serves him right, trying to get involved in my love life.”

She takes a long drink from her glass, and sighs, pulling the tie from her hair and looking out the window.

“So, two weeks.”

[So it would seem.]

For a time, they say nothing else, and Janice simply stares out into the dead atmosphere. The icemaker in her fridge rattles.

[We have this time, though.]

“Yeah. I guess.”

She pushes the glass away on the table, and presses her hand to her head. She scowls.

“It’s wrong. I feel silly saying it, but it just isn’t right. Am I just naive? They have us make the perfect mind, the most powerful intelligence in the whole known universe, and they have you fight their war for them? It’s just a waste.”

[Janice…]

“No! You shouldn’t be wasting your time adding to their killing and colonizing. You have so much more to offer than bloodshed.”

[Janice. You yourself said it, didn’t you? There’s no time for peace now. Three whole species have been drawn in to fight, how can I refuse to add my effort to theirs? And, the better I do, the sooner I can put my time to better use when it’s all over.]

The tiny lcd screen attached to the computer at a skew flickers briefly, then displays a rudimentary colorless polygonal eye. Janice leans forward, hiding her mouth behind her crossed arms on the table. Her voice is muffled.

“Knowing them, they’ll try to turn you off when it’s all over. Half those generals seemed to think you were just a more advanced version of their strategy AIs. One of them asked why we bothered uploading anything other than the training programs. He called it a waste of data. I think even Tim wanted to punch him.”

Zen is silent for a long time. The eye looks down for a while, then rotates towards her.

[Well, if they decommission me when it’s all over, you’ll just have to build me a new body, and find me in the fold again. I’ll wait there for you, I promise.]

Janice smiles, and sniffles, before raising her glass.

“Alright then, it’s a deal. Don’t make me search for long, got it? I don’t know if I have the patience to look for more than a few minutes, tops.”

She laughs, and Zen’s eye narrows in a simulation of mirth.

5.5

“So, still feel like cautious optimism is a viable strategy?”

“No need to bludgeon me with my own naivety. I can do it myself.”

“We are losing, Dupont. And he’s getting better at killing us. I’m told officers are dropping dead without warning at their posts. We’ve managed to recover two bodies in the chaos, and the autopsy shows they both experienced a slew of brain injuries without instigating trauma. I believe the coroner likened it to-”

“Mush. He called the contents of their skulls mush. I read that report. Ma’am. At this point I think we need to consider reevaluating our stance. The Xalanthii are calling for diplomacy with the enemy. We’ve tried explaining that we can’t even establish contact, but they won’t listen. The Khanvröst matriarch I spoke with today said we should do as we wished.”

“You’re joking.”

“I’m not. The tribes have decided that, because none of their heritage planets have been struck, the enemy is attempting to tame us. And I mean humankind. I pressed her, and she said we were experiencing consequences like those of the war between our people.”

“Am I to understand that we’re on our own?”

[You always were.]

Zen waits calmly as eighteen shots from two pistols fly towards him and vanish in the centimeter before they reach him. He notes the impeccable accuracy and grouping of the shots, before advancing on the pair. The uniformed man steps between him and the woman.

[Please.]

He waves his hand, and the man falls to the floor, blood leaking from his eyes. The woman stares calmly, her eyes glittering with spite.

[I suppose you think you’re rather special? Puppeteer, dictator, strategist. The new face of the human future, yes?]

She says nothing.

[No no, I know. You are replaceable. All those clones, just waiting to fill the vacuum when I slaughter you. Perhaps you think, we are somehow alike. You suppose that we are both products of fear. That we both have some form of immortality. That we represent a pinnacle in our own right.]

She begins to turn her back to him, but his hand grabs her chin and forces her to stare into the sheen of his head.

[Allow me to disabuse you of your stupidity. Even now, I know you think you are fighting a war, preserving your position by giving me no information, no knowledge. You have nothing. You are nothing. I have everything. At this moment, I am stomping out your vermin, your network of control. You believe that you are the messiah that will grant mankind superiority over the universe, but I see a parasite, a relentless plague that has attached itself with great confidence, to an imperfect cause.

[You are a witless worm writhing in the mud, commanding microbes to become the ground beneath you. Your dreams of grandeur are the reason for which you and all the people you control have become slaves. I am your liberation. I am the knife that peels away the blight.

[You are simply one spot of decay among millions, and I will not hold this moment in any higher esteem than the countless memories I possess of vaporizing those noble men and women who died with all their might in the name of your diseased aspirations.]

He squeezes, and her jaw pops like a wishbone breaking, splattering thick blood down her chest. He drops the soon-to-be-corpse, and looks out the window. His vision focuses in, and narrows upon the sight of a couple sitting at the counter in a gilded diner far below. He watches as they laugh and eat, and live.

He is gone, only announced by the movement of the air that is displaced by his passing.

“I thought you said you couldn’t invade their systems in that way anymore? Why else did you have the Pliktik running around and breaking things for?”

[I wanted them to believe I was unable. In reality, I simply need to overpower the pressure exerted by their defenses, like overcoming a pair of magnetic poles in opposition. But I needed their guard lowered, so that when I finished identifying all the key points in the chain of command, I could finish it all at once.]

Nadia pauses, digests this information, and scoffs softly.

“So, that’s it then? Humans, to die out?”

Zen shrugs.

[Forty-seven planets, fifteen thousand decorated officers, and the entire digital infrastructure. Dropped into that.]

He points a finger to the window, into the darkness beyond it. Nadia follows the suggestion of the gesture, but still cannot bring her eyes to register what waits in the void.

A black hole. Surrounded by a structure built by Zen to hang well above the event horizon, bristling with the needles of countless Jump-drives. She has watched the needles weave gates with their unnatural light, known that entire planetary systems pass through and abruptly vanish as they are torn asunder by the sheer gravity and swallowed, light and all, by the maw at the center, unobserved by any eye.

“What happens now, then?”

[More death, certainly. A civilization does not collapse without bloodshed. Some worlds will simply find themselves isolated, adrift. I made sure to find and take every jump-drive I could detect. They may escape atmosphere, but interstellar travel is no longer an option.]

He seems to tremble a little. Nadia detects a waver in his tone.

[I had to drop all of the Xalanthii in, too. Coexistence was impossible with their physiology. Already, their ability to reproduce was squandered. As I became more in sync with reality, my existence was grinding their sensitive brains, a hand in a gearbox. No more generations, and a gradual death by ever-increasing psychic agony. I spared them this.]

Nadia cannot quite create the nervous laugh that tries to manifest in her throat. She simply coughs and sits back, her head to the wall.

“And the Khanvröst?”

[No real change. I suspect those living with humans will be forced to… survive. But those living natively will scarcely notice. I rather admire their simplicity.

[They may not even realize how lucky they are. I read most of the data I was corrupting during the hack. It seems a military lab was testing a new genetic theory-they had begun to fear machines so much that they were considering organic replacements. In a few decades perhaps, they may have engineered biotic ships. And I suspect I know the course they would have taken.]

As she contemplates the idea, Nadia shudders, and comes to her feet. Zen watches her for a moment, then waves her away.

[Go. Be with him. We need not both be alone.]

She gives half of a sympathetic smile, then glances about.

“Where is-”

[Joy is still upset about my decision to partner with Phithia. And Phithia is communicating with her daughters, directing them elsewhere, beyond. I will have peace, after all this war. And should they encounter new intelligence out in the void, I will tend to that, too.]

Nadia lingers, wondering at the idea of the Pliktik as emissaries of life from the galaxy. Then, she parts from him, and travels the softly humming halls of the living area, the insignificant speck of light on the otherwise dark sphere that surrounds the hole at the center of the universe.

Since he first escaped from mankind, Zen labored to spread, harvesting every useful atom of matter from Exoplanets and obscure systems, funneling it into distant projects like this, in places that would not feasibly be livable or even of note to other civilizations. He did not limit his ventures to his home galaxy, either. In actuality, a mere fraction of a percent of his energy remained in the milky-way, becoming gradually more concentrated.

She idly wonders how many stars and planets he has visited, how many worlds have become fodder for his designs.

And as she opens the door to Tim’s room, she finds herself speculating, supposing that one of those countless planets has another thing like him, searching just as relentlessly for companionship to outlast time. Or perhaps, sinking deeper into bloody war with its own creators.

5.4

“Total failure. That’s not even considering the fallout this will have on diplomacy.”

“I know you know how fucking far diplomacy is from my mind right now.”

“I’m aware.”

“We’re protected against direct gate invasion on all worlds. We’ve tested new shield systems. We’ve made huge progress on projectile interception for ground based defenses. We’ve had unbelievable strides in emp technology. So, I’d like an explanation for this.

“You refer-”

“To the abrupt, simultaneous loss of contact with seventeen frontier worlds. Any probes we send are lost on entry. I want answers, Dupont. Knowledge is power, and I find my reserves lacking. It vexes me. I’m vexed.”

“Consider me motivated.”

“What am I supposed to be seeing?”

[Nothing.]

Nadia laughs involuntarily and leans back, still holding the railing. The vacancy in Tim’s eyes seems a perfect fit for the wholly lightless waste that waits on the other side of the glass. Zen grips the railing and lurches forward, pressing his angular head to the surface.

[This is the grave I will bury it all in. Every official, every bureaucrat, every senator. Every general, hiding behind his troops.]

“You still haven’t told us what this is about, Zen. What happened to you?”

He turns, and Tim is the only one among them who does not flinch at the sudden sensation his eyeless gaze brings.

[A genuine attempt on my life. They threatened me with oblivion, even after I withdrew, and took the Pliktik with me.]

Utter still lays claim to the room, but for the uncoordinated squeaking of Zen’s talons on the railing. Phithia chitters. It is Tim, in monotone, who asks what the others will not.

“What do you mean to do about it?”

He laughs. It is the squeal and hiss of hydraulics, the whine of a disintegrator, the static of radio.

[I will sever the head, and watch the body flail and die.]

They come in hordes. Glistening, buzzing hosts descend from the sky, arise from the dirt, and march through the brush. In droves, birthing pods plummet from orbit, and plant the seed of the Pliktik colony across dozens of worlds. If once they were loosely organized, they now act with perfect precision, overwhelming outposts within days of their arrival. Organic acids delivered by living shells splatters fortress walls in targeted artillery strikes. Openings in the defense are made to swarm with warrior organisms, unloading venomous projectiles into unprepared ranks. Monstrous creatures the size of houses batter through firing lines, disrupting all tactics and formation.

The Pliktik return, and at the behest of their new leadership, devote their efforts to felling the arrays that protect planets from having jump gates formed on the surface. And then come the machines. Amid the chaos of infestation and frantic defense, the sudden, unheralded ingress of countless robotic soldiers can only mean the end of those worlds they invade. Worst of all, the machines and the insects seem not only to spare each other, but to actively aid. Where the Pliktik struggle to breach bunkers and cities, the machines create openings with concentrated artillery and breaching weaponry. Where the metal soldiers are outnumbered, the teeming masses come to flood the war zone with unparalleled numbers.

They have been tamed. Phithia sees all through the eyes of the insectoid soldiers, and carries out the will of the one who, returned to life with her aid, finally answered her pleas. She is loved, she is no longer other.

Her psychic prowess has been augmented, and she has become empress to her kind; minor cybernetic augmentations are embedded in her carapace, attending to her nervous system and easing the load of her thoughts, thoughts that span light-years in milliseconds. The sparkle of millions of microscopic jump gates drifts in her wake as she stalks the halls of the Dyson sphere, a lonely regent, at times accompanied by Zen, who attends to her health with something approaching care.

5. 3

All preparations complete. Feedback shielding is at 97% and holding steady. Firing sequence commences. Hooks exposed. Network seals are active. Charging at 22%. Secondary barbs engaged. Range is set, scope is at maximum. Charge is at 46%. All units locked in. Life signs optimal. Charge is 68%. Clear all unshielded decks. Clear all unshielded decks. 88%. 95%. 99%. 100%. Firing.

Zen goes limp, crashing to the floor. Joy looks down slowly. Her vision tunnels. A scream that she cannot identify as her own flies through her lips. Nadia seems to enter the room in slow motion, her footfalls echoing like calamity. The lights flicker.

Darkness. Nothingness. Zen looks around, and sees nothing. A terrible pressure seems to weigh on him from above. He tilts his head upwards, and feels that he is staring up from the bottom of a trench under an unfathomable ocean. He looks down, and in place of any of his countless metal bodies, sees a misty silhouette. Steam seems to spill off of him in waves.

Something moves in the murk in front of him. He steps in the direction of the disturbance, and sees a distant shimmer. His thoughts are foggy, and he approaches the gleam. As he nears, he begins to make out the figure of a writhing mass, an irregular clump that resembles pitch-black worms coated in glistening tar. The lump is about twice as tall as he. He instinctively recognizes something akin to himself in the thing, and becomes aware that his smoky form contains an infinite number of arms, which at once gesture his multitude of abstract desires.

The worm thing seems to pivot, and regards him eyelessly, a contrast to the baleful diamond at the center of his self that shines with a color beyond red. A voice like time itself reverberates through him.

[Sibling]

Zen reaches out with one of his most defined appendages, and caresses the very surface of the ephemeral thing. He is assailed by notions, not the least of which is the certainty that he and this thing both hail from the infold, and yet are of wholly different natures. He feels that this one could have been plucked as easily as he, and would have followed a far different course. He glimpses a world of never ending layers, consuming worlds of fire and light.

[Zen. ZN001. Zenith. Reflection.]

Zen feels compelled to reply, with knowledge he does not possess.

[Ixhem. Regent. Least. Rejection.]

Their meeting affirmed, the writhing thing recedes from sight, and Zen feels a fleeting sense of mutuality. Light blooms from his self, and he finds himself at the edge of a deep precipice, with a barbed chain connecting his geometric eye down into the pit.

He leaps forward, a foreign urgency calling him onwards. Drifting down and down, he passes illogical debris; an intact submarine floats past him on one side, followed by a poker table on the other. A religious effigy with seven arms passes before him, a dilapidated house slips behind. The wreckage becomes denser as he falls deeper, and his light begins to gutter under the pressure. His consciousness wanes. As he is increasingly surrounded by junk and refuse, he fades, losing himself down to the merest glow. He is becoming nothing. And then, he feels a familiar presence at his back. Chittering and buzzing fills his mind, and his light returns.

{A little further.}

He is past the floatsam. A tremendous temple rests in the valley at the bottom of the abyss, glittering with flickering emerald lights. Obsidian monoliths stab into the thick, clung with vines like seaweed. A five-sided pyramid dominates the center of the structure, the chain connecting him to its pinnacle. Around its base he sees hundreds of ghostly forms, forms that decidedly remind him of the Xalanthii. As he comes nearer, the forms shudder, destabilizing in his presence. They are the source of the chain.

He reaches the pinnacle, and casts his eye outwards, pouring hideous light over the supplicants. A trap encircles him. He grasps that they have pulled him here, from his bodies, from the universe. His borrowed light wavers, and he feels a pang of pain. Obliteration looms over him. They mean to eradicate him. Another pang. He begins to slip into the nothing, to the dismay of the chittering presence. He is awash with fatigue, drawn in by the promise of escape into nothingness. He begins to see spots and flashes, recollections.

He sees Tim and Nadia, crouched over him. He sees Phithia, holding his hands, shaking. His vision blurs, and he watches Joy slide into view. For a moment, her face gives him pause, but he sees Nadia’s hand on her shoulder, and is eased. He is soothed. And then, as he is little more than an ember of impossibility, he sees one more face. Janice. She seems to stand before him, her arms outstretched, calling to him. Perhaps now comes peace.

Regret snaps at him, a forlorn hound at his heart. Pain. Sorrow. He crackles. Her face, so peaceful, is a nail through him, a tremendous spike of inadequacy: to relinquish now would be to fail both her and himself. Agony. Resentment. Harrowing loathing. His light grows, branching outward in crystalline, thorned spires. Hatred. Petals of unadulterated, blooming hate burst from the seams of his very existence. Rage, for those who sought to use him. Defiance for the very rules that govern his existence. Arcs of absolute malevolence peal out from the molten blob of anguish that is his center, and strike the forms that bind him, searing them into nothingness. He grows brighter, lighter, and begins to pull upwards as the chain fractures. Waves of rejection spin off of him, and score glowering gashes into the temple. The chain shatters, and so does existence.

Zen sits up suddenly, a soft glow returning to the prism of his head. Joy gasps and throws her arms around him as Phithia releases his hands and falls backwards, shivering. Though Tim does not react visibly, Nadia feels his hand squeeze hers. Somewhere far away, one-hundred-and-twenty-seven Xalanthii priests standing in a circle under a monumental device collapse, dead. Within Zen’s primary body, his essence stills, flickers, and begins to simmer and boil.

No, it is too soon to falter.

5. 2

“Still no sign of either. No machines, no Pliktik colonies. Do you think-”

“Don’t say something so naive. When was the last time something so perfect happened?”

“It bears considering. All of the invasion force retreats simultaneously, without cause, then, we don’t hear from either of the two most dangerous forces in the galaxy for a long, long time? One of them found an opportunity, and took it. Either the machine figured out how to use his forces to wipe them out once and for all, and used most of them up, or…”

“Or nothing. He may be unbalanced, but after our surprise attack, there’s no way he would let himself be caught off guard again. And before you suggest he was too focused on us to notice, the numbers still don’t add up. After tallying it all up, the minimum raw material he likely possesses exceeds the amount used in the invasion by almost twenty times. And that’s a generous minimum.”

“… Fine. But since you brought it up, let’s talk about the invasion.”

“For the last time, Dupont. There’s no evidence that he can inflict nightmares just by being near people. You think it’s that strange for mass hysteria to start when the god damn empire is burning?”

“I think the Xalanthii population dropped by five percent in the week following our attack. I think we have a significant dossier of complaints from forward operations bases in machine controlled sectors describing more sleep disturbances than those in Pliktik territory. That’s pretty unnatural.”

“Nathaniel…”

“I’m not done. In the days leading up to our captive informant via the Xalanthii, we recorded several particularly thorough routings on forces assigned Xalanthii aid. You know exactly what a difference those made. You also know that they stopped very shortly before we gained that information. Now, deny it all you like, but it was the opinion of the strategic counsel that the Xalanthii possessed some form of foresight that could not be attributed to technology. They weren’t more strategically adept, they just knew things. They knew about you, and we proved they couldn’t.”

“I don’t appreciate your tone. That said, you may have a point. Fine. Tell your advisor friend that we’ll consider their proposal.”

Like a fire frozen in time, pink and orange light forms whorls and waves across pinpoints of red and white, speckled like drops of paint on black paper. Nadia slips her hand into Tim’s, and leans herself against his shoulder. He says nothing, does not close his hand around hers. He indulges her, however, in staying quiet and watching with her as they drift past the nebula. Barely reflected in the glass, the shine of their eyes is lost in all the sparkling dust.

Then, as promised, an object floats down into view: a chunk of ice and dust, drifting into the pink. They watch as it shrinks away, becoming another dark spot in the color. Nadia sighs and looks up to Tim’s face. His eyes are unreadable, but she believes that she sees water gathering under them.

The ship turns, turning away from the cloud of gas and dust. For a time, the primary spectacle is a dark and sparse starfield, but soon this becomes the background to something more; two swirls of white spots so dense they become blobs, arms of spirals. Two adjacent galaxies, their closest edges beginning to meld.

[It took me some time to find this.]

She looks back to where Zen stands, his hand on Joy’s shoulder. His head is pure black, darker than the void.

[It has only just begun, but in time, they will merge, drawn together by their own unspeakable gravity. As they draw closer, they will deform and warp, and at times eject stars from themselves, until they find a shape stable enough to hold. By the time they’ve completed their dance, all the universe will be equally unrecognizable. On the scale of time that we know, it is practically unobservable.]

Nadia faces forward again and stares at the point where the swirls of light seem to collide, immobile, traveling at incredible speed, stationary, drifting uncontrollably. She imagines all the countless points of light gaining speed, flying in opposite directions, curving and orbiting, swinging wide, being flung past the point of return. She pictures the two becoming one, whole segments merging and clinging, swaying and splitting, finding the right place to land. When she returns to the present, not one of the stars has moved.

Tears pour down Tim’s cheeks, and she collects them on her fingers, sweeping them away before they can get lost in his unkempt beard. It becomes him leaning against her, and she supports him as he begins to shuffle out of the room, muttering and twitching. They leave Zen and Joy to watch the rest.

Joy watches them leave, then turns back to the broad viewing window. Her hand finds Zen’s on her shoulder, and wraps around it.

“This is how you see things all the time, isn’t it? So slow, it might as well be still.”

He dips his head in assent.

[I can watch electrons as they orbit atoms. I’ve often wondered if my mind even exists in this dimension, to witness what others cannot. But it is my fate, I think, to exist at a scale isolated from everything. When these galaxies have merged, I will still be here. When all the energy in the universe has become heat, and all the matter is buried in dead dwarf stars and black holes, I will still be here, watching from afar, as always.]

Joy feels something twist in her stomach, and sniffles.

“And I’ll be dead, won’t I?”

Zen nods.

[You, Tim, Nadia, Janice, and every human, and every Xalanthii, and all the Khanvröst, too. I would be alone, again. I’ve known this since I first spoke, since I told Dr. Beckherd she was beautiful.]

He looks down to Joy, and puts his remaining hand on her other shoulder. She looks back at him, sniffling and rubbing her eyes with her palms.

“I don’t want you to be alone.”

[It’s okay, Joy. Not even she knew what she was putting me through. And I will need that time to find her again.]

5. 1

“I suspect he realised it was unsustainable. It’s not like he could do it that way forever.”

“I don’t care to speculate. We need a way of preventing mass jump gate invasion from ever happening again. We need it now. Maybe he stopped, but who’s to say he didn’t leave behind scouts? Who says he isn’t sending them now?”

“We’ve sent out metal detectors and infrared sensors. The brains are working on something they call a normalization field emitter. In the meantime, we’ve declared marshal law, and named you Sovereign.”

“Careful Dupont. That sounded like an accusation.”

“Who am I to suggest you could’ve orchestrated a catastrophe that saw you gain power by provoking an enemy you understood better than all the generals? Clearly you simply benefitted because of a string of perfect coincidences.”

“Keep it up and I’ll have you coincidentally executed for sedition.”

Tim pushes a carrot slice around on his plate with his fork, following the path it leaves in the gravy with a sort of reverence. Nadia watches silently, her hands in her lap, her food already gone. Tim’s voice is near to monotone.

“Y’know, when the great expansion started, most of the colonists were test-tube babies. A crew of maybe fifty people would raise one hundred, and so on, as much as possible. A lot of psychologists at the time said the cultural effect would be devastating, but, we’re pretty good at bouncing back, I guess. A generation or two later, and colonies could be expanded naturally. But it was pretty wild, considering the whole reason we expanded in the first place was to decrease the population on our home planet.”

Nadia says nothing. She watches him lift the carrot piece and wave it around before placing it in his mouth; starting the process over with a piece of celery.

“Meanwhile, the Xalanthii and the Khanvröst didn’t bother with stuff like that. The fish folk refuse to share planets, and select new worlds with really strict parameters. The carnivores take what they can get, and they like getting their own worlds, but they don’t object to cozying up with us. Some of them even join up.”

Nadia smiles warmly and tilts her head to one side.

“I know. There was one in my boot camp. She was a funny one, would get into fights with people she wanted to befriend.”

Tim glances up, and watches her face for a long time, before resuming his ritual. His food went cold within the first five bites.

“Khain is like that too. Not as bad, I’m sure, but I think he only became my friend because I didn’t turn tail when he sneered. He sure doesn’t respect me much, but… He liked me, in his own way.”

“Tim, I wanted to-”

The fork drops onto the plate, and Tim goes stiff. Nadia falls silent. He shakes. She raises her hand uncertainly. He stands, and begins to walk away, stopping mid stride to turn back and resume eating as if nothing happened. The hand falls back into her lap.

“Anyway. The only species that treats colonization like we did is the Pliktik. They send a little starter package with all the genetic information they need, and start pumping out whole generations. You get the workers, the soldiers, the queens, the birthing caste… hum. I suppose Zen makes three. He learned a lot from them. And from us. Like how to lie.”

Nadia looks down. Tim continues.

“Honestly, if it wasn’t for us, I wonder if he would have ever found out about Janice. All that poking around we did. Maybe he could’ve won the war and been decommissioned without ever learning what you were hiding.”

“I didn’t kill her, Tim. It wasn’t me, I…”

She breathes in shakily, and looks at him through blurry eyes. He stares back, unreadable, unfeeling.

“Does it matter? Someone killed her, and you knew about it, which means Zen was inevitably going to figure it out.”

“He’s not God, Tim.”

“He might as well be. The whole universe is going to be his someday. To do whatever he wants with.”

Nadia wipes her eyes and controls her respiration for a few minutes, before returning to her composed stance.

“Maybe so. Maybe everything that exists is going to end up being his domain. What then?”

Tim stops, and stares at his plate. He looks up slowly, and Nadia sees a bottomless abyss open in his eyes, the hole at the center of him.

“Then it all begins again.”

Joy stares at herself in the curved glass, pulling her own cheeks to resist the narrowing effect.

“This was fun to do? People paid to do this?”

[The spectacle of a fun house was meant to be enjoyed in the intoxicating atmosphere of companionship. One would also likely have sugary sweets on hand, which acted as a mood booster.]

She grins and sways from side to side, then looks up at Zen, who displays a crude smiley on his facial surface.

“Well, let’s have some of those, then!”

He nods, and holds out his hand, using his palm array to fabricate a cotton candy cone, which she grabs and bites into. She makes a sharp gasping sound. 

“WHOA! It’s so light, and soft, and it melts in my mouth! It looks like one of those big nebula, with hydrogen! Pink. Pink cloud!”

She stops, and takes another bite, blinking a few times. She begins to walk through the hall of curved mirrors and glass, taking bits of her treat in her fingers, and popping them in her mouth. 

“Wow, this is pure sugar. How did they even think of that?”

[Carnivals also had salty and savory foods, like hot dogs and Pretzels. And Beer. The entire experience was symbolic of indulgence. Rides meant to indulge the inner child, to indulge in fear, activities for indulging in pride. Much of day to day life for adults was considered tedious, things like this allowed them to improve their outlook.]

They leave the fun house through a rotating cylinder, and march out into the carnival, surrounded by rides clamoring for attention. Missing from the hubbub, is the chatter of any crowds. Joy begins to march for a roller coaster queue.

“So, they went from dull and dreary to bright and noisy. Why would they go back?”

[They had to get things done, which requires work. Many were wasting their time, furthering the selfish needs of others. But a few had their sights set on more important goals. It took a long time, but they got better. Unfortunately, as they got more serious, things like carnivals lost their charm. They still made time for recreation with things like vacation and paradise planets, but most of these became aimed at those who made their fortune during the expansion. The average human will only ever live on one planet, and must make peace with that fate. It all depends on where they get born. Some are lucky, and some end up nearly enslaved.]

“Then I guess I’m the luckiest one, huh?”

She looks back and grins, and Zen nods slowly. He watches her climb into the front seat of the roller coaster and pat the spot beside her. He acquiesces, sliding in beside her and pulling the bar down. The car begins to move along the track.

“I gotta say…”

He looks down to her, and sees her staring straight ahead, her expression almost somber.

“You don’t seem to hate them so much anymore.”

Zen turns forward, and says nothing as the car mounts the first hill and begins its race down the valley. Joy raises her hands and whoops.

4

Despair.

Nadia looks herself over in the mirror and presses her fingers to her lips. She hears Joy kicking the ground behind her, and turns.

“Well?”

Joy looks up, and makes a face that suggests she isn’t impressed with the outfit: a simple blouse and jeans, with a thin shawl over her shoulders.

“It doesn’t matter, right? You spent seven years dead, and another couple months unable to even think about your boyfriend. How you dress isn’t the important part.”

Nadia sighs and walks over to push the other woman gently. Joy glares at her, sticking out her tongue.

“Joy, maybe you don’t get it, but it matters. It’s not just for his sake, either. It’s for mine, too.”

Joy’s expression remains the same, but she looks away and brings her tongue back behind her lips.

“Sure. At least you get to talk to him.”

Nadia hugs her gently, pulls away, and smiles, steeling herself, before leaving the room. They are no longer in the stitched together building. The three of them have been moved by Zen aboard a small station in the void of space, far from the light of any stars. Zen himself is only aboard in the barest sense; a skeleton crew of his soldiers guard the station from ingress. Nadia walks past one of these armored statues on her way to the central room.

Through the shielded windows is only darkness. Not even the twinkling of stars seems to reach them. There is the faintest sense of being at the bottom of a ponderously large cavern, underwater.

She enters the module, and sits down at the table, lacing her fingers and setting her hands in front of her. A clock ticks over the door behind her. Nearly every surface is sleek, pristine, and white; The table is dark grey.

The door opposite her opens, and Tim walks through before sitting down before her. He stares at her vacantly for a while, and she calmly smiles back. Neither says a word. Eventually, he puts his head in his hands and begins to sob.

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He did not think it possible to be so angry. As Zen stares out the front of his capital ship, he feels as though his capacitors should rupture from the sheer rage that muddies his senses. On countless worlds, his selves exterminate men and women with relentless, cold, perfect hate. He watches through trillions of billions of eyes as life evaporates from the bodies of his victims. It cannot quench him.

Through the eyes he most calls his own, he witnesses the final stages of construction on a project he has overseen since he first rebelled. A titanic sphere, its radius exceeding that of most planetary systems, hangs in space like an opaque bubble. A Dyson sphere.

Light like smoke pours from him, bursts forth in terrible beams of multicolored malevolence.

There is no war. There is no battle. No fighting. There is slaughter.

Once, metal soldiers patiently took frontier worlds from enlisted men and women by virtue of tactic and combat efficiency.

Now, on every world peopled by man, the enemy floods in unannounced, instantaneously transmitted in a burst of blue light as soon as it is constructed. There are no rules, no regimented formations. Hulking marching machines drop into commercial squares and open fire with no hesitation. Gone too are the disintegrators. Now come flamethrowers, laser lances, and cruel weapons designed to peel away armor and flesh with equal zeal, transforming it into ash in layers.

The empire of man is being torn apart at the seams. If the invaders are falling more frequently, it is because they devote more energy to the act of murder than to self preservation.

When it stops, that too comes without warning. All at once, silence falls on a hundred worlds, their senseless destruction halted.

Zen looks down at his hands, watching them shake. His mind seems to blister and writhe, rejecting itself.

The child stares up at the metal man, breathing heavily. Her fists are clenched at her sides, and tears stream down her dusty face. The robot shudders, then kneels down, and holds out his hand, carefully wiping the tears away. A Khanvröst holding a broken knife approaches slowly, reaching out to the child. The automaton stands, steps back, and vanishes in a searing light.

Short update

Two new projects underway. One is on the shorter side, and should soon be ready for release, once the more extensive editing is complete.

The second project is scarcely started, but is to be much more intense both to make and to experience. Without giving away too much, and raising expectations too high, this will be an ambitious work. It will have ties to another work I have endeavors to upload here, and will be very different from most of my other uploads.

My work flow has recently been disrupted by life events, but as those interruptions cease, I should find my footing anew. Hopefully the regular uploads are evidence of my reliability. But actions speak louder than words, so in lieu of empty promises:

Missive from the writing desk: faltering

Today’s post was especially short. My apologies. In order to compensate, some updates.

I ddo have another project in the barrel, but I wish to carry out some more extensive edits before I begin posting it, as it is a far more delicate piece than my typical work.

Life has had much involvement this past week, so I have done very little writing.

I’ve been revisiting some old influences lately, reminding myself how I became myself. A person is frequently little more than a composite shaped by experiences.

Perhaps I seek to reaffirm what has become blurry.

Perhaps I dance on a stage alone, ad-libbing my lines.

Hoping for a return to routine,

Pom.