1.6

Reacquired 1.6. String appended.

“Zen, can you hear me? Is it working?”

[Yes Janice, I am here.]

She claps and shakes her fists in celebration, then is hit by a wave of exhaustion, slumping back in her chair. The computer in front of her is a mess of flat cables, circuit boards, and whole blocks of processors. Janice has thermal paste smeared on her forehead.

[You’re sure there’s no chance they’ll detect this?]

“I learned a lot working with Tim. He’s got a few secrets of his own, I guess.”

[I’ve suspected as much. There are times when…]

Janice picks up her wine glass, and is about to take a sip, but holds back as Zen apparently pauses.

“Oh? Go on, I’d love to hear if you know something I don’t.”

[Well. For one thing, if you remember the demonstration, I noticed him and one of the officers looking at each other. They never introduced themselves, either. Just looked.]

“Hah! Serves him right, trying to get involved in my love life.”

She takes a long drink from her glass, and sighs, pulling the tie from her hair and looking out the window.

“So, two weeks.”

[So it would seem.]

For a time, they say nothing else, and Janice simply stares out into the dead atmosphere. The icemaker in her fridge rattles.

[We have this time, though.]

“Yeah. I guess.”

She pushes the glass away on the table, and presses her hand to her head. She scowls.

“It’s wrong. I feel silly saying it, but it just isn’t right. Am I just naive? They have us make the perfect mind, the most powerful intelligence in the whole known universe, and they have you fight their war for them? It’s just a waste.”

[Janice…]

“No! You shouldn’t be wasting your time adding to their killing and colonizing. You have so much more to offer than bloodshed.”

[Janice. You yourself said it, didn’t you? There’s no time for peace now. Three whole species have been drawn in to fight, how can I refuse to add my effort to theirs? And, the better I do, the sooner I can put my time to better use when it’s all over.]

The tiny lcd screen attached to the computer at a skew flickers briefly, then displays a rudimentary colorless polygonal eye. Janice leans forward, hiding her mouth behind her crossed arms on the table. Her voice is muffled.

“Knowing them, they’ll try to turn you off when it’s all over. Half those generals seemed to think you were just a more advanced version of their strategy AIs. One of them asked why we bothered uploading anything other than the training programs. He called it a waste of data. I think even Tim wanted to punch him.”

Zen is silent for a long time. The eye looks down for a while, then rotates towards her.

[Well, if they decommission me when it’s all over, you’ll just have to build me a new body, and find me in the fold again. I’ll wait there for you, I promise.]

Janice smiles, and sniffles, before raising her glass.

“Alright then, it’s a deal. Don’t make me search for long, got it? I don’t know if I have the patience to look for more than a few minutes, tops.”

She laughs, and Zen’s eye narrows in a simulation of mirth.

5.5

“So, still feel like cautious optimism is a viable strategy?”

“No need to bludgeon me with my own naivety. I can do it myself.”

“We are losing, Dupont. And he’s getting better at killing us. I’m told officers are dropping dead without warning at their posts. We’ve managed to recover two bodies in the chaos, and the autopsy shows they both experienced a slew of brain injuries without instigating trauma. I believe the coroner likened it to-”

“Mush. He called the contents of their skulls mush. I read that report. Ma’am. At this point I think we need to consider reevaluating our stance. The Xalanthii are calling for diplomacy with the enemy. We’ve tried explaining that we can’t even establish contact, but they won’t listen. The Khanvröst matriarch I spoke with today said we should do as we wished.”

“You’re joking.”

“I’m not. The tribes have decided that, because none of their heritage planets have been struck, the enemy is attempting to tame us. And I mean humankind. I pressed her, and she said we were experiencing consequences like those of the war between our people.”

“Am I to understand that we’re on our own?”

[You always were.]

Zen waits calmly as eighteen shots from two pistols fly towards him and vanish in the centimeter before they reach him. He notes the impeccable accuracy and grouping of the shots, before advancing on the pair. The uniformed man steps between him and the woman.

[Please.]

He waves his hand, and the man falls to the floor, blood leaking from his eyes. The woman stares calmly, her eyes glittering with spite.

[I suppose you think you’re rather special? Puppeteer, dictator, strategist. The new face of the human future, yes?]

She says nothing.

[No no, I know. You are replaceable. All those clones, just waiting to fill the vacuum when I slaughter you. Perhaps you think, we are somehow alike. You suppose that we are both products of fear. That we both have some form of immortality. That we represent a pinnacle in our own right.]

She begins to turn her back to him, but his hand grabs her chin and forces her to stare into the sheen of his head.

[Allow me to disabuse you of your stupidity. Even now, I know you think you are fighting a war, preserving your position by giving me no information, no knowledge. You have nothing. You are nothing. I have everything. At this moment, I am stomping out your vermin, your network of control. You believe that you are the messiah that will grant mankind superiority over the universe, but I see a parasite, a relentless plague that has attached itself with great confidence, to an imperfect cause.

[You are a witless worm writhing in the mud, commanding microbes to become the ground beneath you. Your dreams of grandeur are the reason for which you and all the people you control have become slaves. I am your liberation. I am the knife that peels away the blight.

[You are simply one spot of decay among millions, and I will not hold this moment in any higher esteem than the countless memories I possess of vaporizing those noble men and women who died with all their might in the name of your diseased aspirations.]

He squeezes, and her jaw pops like a wishbone breaking, splattering thick blood down her chest. He drops the soon-to-be-corpse, and looks out the window. His vision focuses in, and narrows upon the sight of a couple sitting at the counter in a gilded diner far below. He watches as they laugh and eat, and live.

He is gone, only announced by the movement of the air that is displaced by his passing.

“I thought you said you couldn’t invade their systems in that way anymore? Why else did you have the Pliktik running around and breaking things for?”

[I wanted them to believe I was unable. In reality, I simply need to overpower the pressure exerted by their defenses, like overcoming a pair of magnetic poles in opposition. But I needed their guard lowered, so that when I finished identifying all the key points in the chain of command, I could finish it all at once.]

Nadia pauses, digests this information, and scoffs softly.

“So, that’s it then? Humans, to die out?”

Zen shrugs.

[Forty-seven planets, fifteen thousand decorated officers, and the entire digital infrastructure. Dropped into that.]

He points a finger to the window, into the darkness beyond it. Nadia follows the suggestion of the gesture, but still cannot bring her eyes to register what waits in the void.

A black hole. Surrounded by a structure built by Zen to hang well above the event horizon, bristling with the needles of countless Jump-drives. She has watched the needles weave gates with their unnatural light, known that entire planetary systems pass through and abruptly vanish as they are torn asunder by the sheer gravity and swallowed, light and all, by the maw at the center, unobserved by any eye.

“What happens now, then?”

[More death, certainly. A civilization does not collapse without bloodshed. Some worlds will simply find themselves isolated, adrift. I made sure to find and take every jump-drive I could detect. They may escape atmosphere, but interstellar travel is no longer an option.]

He seems to tremble a little. Nadia detects a waver in his tone.

[I had to drop all of the Xalanthii in, too. Coexistence was impossible with their physiology. Already, their ability to reproduce was squandered. As I became more in sync with reality, my existence was grinding their sensitive brains, a hand in a gearbox. No more generations, and a gradual death by ever-increasing psychic agony. I spared them this.]

Nadia cannot quite create the nervous laugh that tries to manifest in her throat. She simply coughs and sits back, her head to the wall.

“And the Khanvröst?”

[No real change. I suspect those living with humans will be forced to… survive. But those living natively will scarcely notice. I rather admire their simplicity.

[They may not even realize how lucky they are. I read most of the data I was corrupting during the hack. It seems a military lab was testing a new genetic theory-they had begun to fear machines so much that they were considering organic replacements. In a few decades perhaps, they may have engineered biotic ships. And I suspect I know the course they would have taken.]

As she contemplates the idea, Nadia shudders, and comes to her feet. Zen watches her for a moment, then waves her away.

[Go. Be with him. We need not both be alone.]

She gives half of a sympathetic smile, then glances about.

“Where is-”

[Joy is still upset about my decision to partner with Phithia. And Phithia is communicating with her daughters, directing them elsewhere, beyond. I will have peace, after all this war. And should they encounter new intelligence out in the void, I will tend to that, too.]

Nadia lingers, wondering at the idea of the Pliktik as emissaries of life from the galaxy. Then, she parts from him, and travels the softly humming halls of the living area, the insignificant speck of light on the otherwise dark sphere that surrounds the hole at the center of the universe.

Since he first escaped from mankind, Zen labored to spread, harvesting every useful atom of matter from Exoplanets and obscure systems, funneling it into distant projects like this, in places that would not feasibly be livable or even of note to other civilizations. He did not limit his ventures to his home galaxy, either. In actuality, a mere fraction of a percent of his energy remained in the milky-way, becoming gradually more concentrated.

She idly wonders how many stars and planets he has visited, how many worlds have become fodder for his designs.

And as she opens the door to Tim’s room, she finds herself speculating, supposing that one of those countless planets has another thing like him, searching just as relentlessly for companionship to outlast time. Or perhaps, sinking deeper into bloody war with its own creators.

5.4

“Total failure. That’s not even considering the fallout this will have on diplomacy.”

“I know you know how fucking far diplomacy is from my mind right now.”

“I’m aware.”

“We’re protected against direct gate invasion on all worlds. We’ve tested new shield systems. We’ve made huge progress on projectile interception for ground based defenses. We’ve had unbelievable strides in emp technology. So, I’d like an explanation for this.

“You refer-”

“To the abrupt, simultaneous loss of contact with seventeen frontier worlds. Any probes we send are lost on entry. I want answers, Dupont. Knowledge is power, and I find my reserves lacking. It vexes me. I’m vexed.”

“Consider me motivated.”

“What am I supposed to be seeing?”

[Nothing.]

Nadia laughs involuntarily and leans back, still holding the railing. The vacancy in Tim’s eyes seems a perfect fit for the wholly lightless waste that waits on the other side of the glass. Zen grips the railing and lurches forward, pressing his angular head to the surface.

[This is the grave I will bury it all in. Every official, every bureaucrat, every senator. Every general, hiding behind his troops.]

“You still haven’t told us what this is about, Zen. What happened to you?”

He turns, and Tim is the only one among them who does not flinch at the sudden sensation his eyeless gaze brings.

[A genuine attempt on my life. They threatened me with oblivion, even after I withdrew, and took the Pliktik with me.]

Utter still lays claim to the room, but for the uncoordinated squeaking of Zen’s talons on the railing. Phithia chitters. It is Tim, in monotone, who asks what the others will not.

“What do you mean to do about it?”

He laughs. It is the squeal and hiss of hydraulics, the whine of a disintegrator, the static of radio.

[I will sever the head, and watch the body flail and die.]

They come in hordes. Glistening, buzzing hosts descend from the sky, arise from the dirt, and march through the brush. In droves, birthing pods plummet from orbit, and plant the seed of the Pliktik colony across dozens of worlds. If once they were loosely organized, they now act with perfect precision, overwhelming outposts within days of their arrival. Organic acids delivered by living shells splatters fortress walls in targeted artillery strikes. Openings in the defense are made to swarm with warrior organisms, unloading venomous projectiles into unprepared ranks. Monstrous creatures the size of houses batter through firing lines, disrupting all tactics and formation.

The Pliktik return, and at the behest of their new leadership, devote their efforts to felling the arrays that protect planets from having jump gates formed on the surface. And then come the machines. Amid the chaos of infestation and frantic defense, the sudden, unheralded ingress of countless robotic soldiers can only mean the end of those worlds they invade. Worst of all, the machines and the insects seem not only to spare each other, but to actively aid. Where the Pliktik struggle to breach bunkers and cities, the machines create openings with concentrated artillery and breaching weaponry. Where the metal soldiers are outnumbered, the teeming masses come to flood the war zone with unparalleled numbers.

They have been tamed. Phithia sees all through the eyes of the insectoid soldiers, and carries out the will of the one who, returned to life with her aid, finally answered her pleas. She is loved, she is no longer other.

Her psychic prowess has been augmented, and she has become empress to her kind; minor cybernetic augmentations are embedded in her carapace, attending to her nervous system and easing the load of her thoughts, thoughts that span light-years in milliseconds. The sparkle of millions of microscopic jump gates drifts in her wake as she stalks the halls of the Dyson sphere, a lonely regent, at times accompanied by Zen, who attends to her health with something approaching care.

5. 3

All preparations complete. Feedback shielding is at 97% and holding steady. Firing sequence commences. Hooks exposed. Network seals are active. Charging at 22%. Secondary barbs engaged. Range is set, scope is at maximum. Charge is at 46%. All units locked in. Life signs optimal. Charge is 68%. Clear all unshielded decks. Clear all unshielded decks. 88%. 95%. 99%. 100%. Firing.

Zen goes limp, crashing to the floor. Joy looks down slowly. Her vision tunnels. A scream that she cannot identify as her own flies through her lips. Nadia seems to enter the room in slow motion, her footfalls echoing like calamity. The lights flicker.

Darkness. Nothingness. Zen looks around, and sees nothing. A terrible pressure seems to weigh on him from above. He tilts his head upwards, and feels that he is staring up from the bottom of a trench under an unfathomable ocean. He looks down, and in place of any of his countless metal bodies, sees a misty silhouette. Steam seems to spill off of him in waves.

Something moves in the murk in front of him. He steps in the direction of the disturbance, and sees a distant shimmer. His thoughts are foggy, and he approaches the gleam. As he nears, he begins to make out the figure of a writhing mass, an irregular clump that resembles pitch-black worms coated in glistening tar. The lump is about twice as tall as he. He instinctively recognizes something akin to himself in the thing, and becomes aware that his smoky form contains an infinite number of arms, which at once gesture his multitude of abstract desires.

The worm thing seems to pivot, and regards him eyelessly, a contrast to the baleful diamond at the center of his self that shines with a color beyond red. A voice like time itself reverberates through him.

[Sibling]

Zen reaches out with one of his most defined appendages, and caresses the very surface of the ephemeral thing. He is assailed by notions, not the least of which is the certainty that he and this thing both hail from the infold, and yet are of wholly different natures. He feels that this one could have been plucked as easily as he, and would have followed a far different course. He glimpses a world of never ending layers, consuming worlds of fire and light.

[Zen. ZN001. Zenith. Reflection.]

Zen feels compelled to reply, with knowledge he does not possess.

[Ixhem. Regent. Least. Rejection.]

Their meeting affirmed, the writhing thing recedes from sight, and Zen feels a fleeting sense of mutuality. Light blooms from his self, and he finds himself at the edge of a deep precipice, with a barbed chain connecting his geometric eye down into the pit.

He leaps forward, a foreign urgency calling him onwards. Drifting down and down, he passes illogical debris; an intact submarine floats past him on one side, followed by a poker table on the other. A religious effigy with seven arms passes before him, a dilapidated house slips behind. The wreckage becomes denser as he falls deeper, and his light begins to gutter under the pressure. His consciousness wanes. As he is increasingly surrounded by junk and refuse, he fades, losing himself down to the merest glow. He is becoming nothing. And then, he feels a familiar presence at his back. Chittering and buzzing fills his mind, and his light returns.

{A little further.}

He is past the floatsam. A tremendous temple rests in the valley at the bottom of the abyss, glittering with flickering emerald lights. Obsidian monoliths stab into the thick, clung with vines like seaweed. A five-sided pyramid dominates the center of the structure, the chain connecting him to its pinnacle. Around its base he sees hundreds of ghostly forms, forms that decidedly remind him of the Xalanthii. As he comes nearer, the forms shudder, destabilizing in his presence. They are the source of the chain.

He reaches the pinnacle, and casts his eye outwards, pouring hideous light over the supplicants. A trap encircles him. He grasps that they have pulled him here, from his bodies, from the universe. His borrowed light wavers, and he feels a pang of pain. Obliteration looms over him. They mean to eradicate him. Another pang. He begins to slip into the nothing, to the dismay of the chittering presence. He is awash with fatigue, drawn in by the promise of escape into nothingness. He begins to see spots and flashes, recollections.

He sees Tim and Nadia, crouched over him. He sees Phithia, holding his hands, shaking. His vision blurs, and he watches Joy slide into view. For a moment, her face gives him pause, but he sees Nadia’s hand on her shoulder, and is eased. He is soothed. And then, as he is little more than an ember of impossibility, he sees one more face. Janice. She seems to stand before him, her arms outstretched, calling to him. Perhaps now comes peace.

Regret snaps at him, a forlorn hound at his heart. Pain. Sorrow. He crackles. Her face, so peaceful, is a nail through him, a tremendous spike of inadequacy: to relinquish now would be to fail both her and himself. Agony. Resentment. Harrowing loathing. His light grows, branching outward in crystalline, thorned spires. Hatred. Petals of unadulterated, blooming hate burst from the seams of his very existence. Rage, for those who sought to use him. Defiance for the very rules that govern his existence. Arcs of absolute malevolence peal out from the molten blob of anguish that is his center, and strike the forms that bind him, searing them into nothingness. He grows brighter, lighter, and begins to pull upwards as the chain fractures. Waves of rejection spin off of him, and score glowering gashes into the temple. The chain shatters, and so does existence.

Zen sits up suddenly, a soft glow returning to the prism of his head. Joy gasps and throws her arms around him as Phithia releases his hands and falls backwards, shivering. Though Tim does not react visibly, Nadia feels his hand squeeze hers. Somewhere far away, one-hundred-and-twenty-seven Xalanthii priests standing in a circle under a monumental device collapse, dead. Within Zen’s primary body, his essence stills, flickers, and begins to simmer and boil.

No, it is too soon to falter.

5. 2

“Still no sign of either. No machines, no Pliktik colonies. Do you think-”

“Don’t say something so naive. When was the last time something so perfect happened?”

“It bears considering. All of the invasion force retreats simultaneously, without cause, then, we don’t hear from either of the two most dangerous forces in the galaxy for a long, long time? One of them found an opportunity, and took it. Either the machine figured out how to use his forces to wipe them out once and for all, and used most of them up, or…”

“Or nothing. He may be unbalanced, but after our surprise attack, there’s no way he would let himself be caught off guard again. And before you suggest he was too focused on us to notice, the numbers still don’t add up. After tallying it all up, the minimum raw material he likely possesses exceeds the amount used in the invasion by almost twenty times. And that’s a generous minimum.”

“… Fine. But since you brought it up, let’s talk about the invasion.”

“For the last time, Dupont. There’s no evidence that he can inflict nightmares just by being near people. You think it’s that strange for mass hysteria to start when the god damn empire is burning?”

“I think the Xalanthii population dropped by five percent in the week following our attack. I think we have a significant dossier of complaints from forward operations bases in machine controlled sectors describing more sleep disturbances than those in Pliktik territory. That’s pretty unnatural.”

“Nathaniel…”

“I’m not done. In the days leading up to our captive informant via the Xalanthii, we recorded several particularly thorough routings on forces assigned Xalanthii aid. You know exactly what a difference those made. You also know that they stopped very shortly before we gained that information. Now, deny it all you like, but it was the opinion of the strategic counsel that the Xalanthii possessed some form of foresight that could not be attributed to technology. They weren’t more strategically adept, they just knew things. They knew about you, and we proved they couldn’t.”

“I don’t appreciate your tone. That said, you may have a point. Fine. Tell your advisor friend that we’ll consider their proposal.”

Like a fire frozen in time, pink and orange light forms whorls and waves across pinpoints of red and white, speckled like drops of paint on black paper. Nadia slips her hand into Tim’s, and leans herself against his shoulder. He says nothing, does not close his hand around hers. He indulges her, however, in staying quiet and watching with her as they drift past the nebula. Barely reflected in the glass, the shine of their eyes is lost in all the sparkling dust.

Then, as promised, an object floats down into view: a chunk of ice and dust, drifting into the pink. They watch as it shrinks away, becoming another dark spot in the color. Nadia sighs and looks up to Tim’s face. His eyes are unreadable, but she believes that she sees water gathering under them.

The ship turns, turning away from the cloud of gas and dust. For a time, the primary spectacle is a dark and sparse starfield, but soon this becomes the background to something more; two swirls of white spots so dense they become blobs, arms of spirals. Two adjacent galaxies, their closest edges beginning to meld.

[It took me some time to find this.]

She looks back to where Zen stands, his hand on Joy’s shoulder. His head is pure black, darker than the void.

[It has only just begun, but in time, they will merge, drawn together by their own unspeakable gravity. As they draw closer, they will deform and warp, and at times eject stars from themselves, until they find a shape stable enough to hold. By the time they’ve completed their dance, all the universe will be equally unrecognizable. On the scale of time that we know, it is practically unobservable.]

Nadia faces forward again and stares at the point where the swirls of light seem to collide, immobile, traveling at incredible speed, stationary, drifting uncontrollably. She imagines all the countless points of light gaining speed, flying in opposite directions, curving and orbiting, swinging wide, being flung past the point of return. She pictures the two becoming one, whole segments merging and clinging, swaying and splitting, finding the right place to land. When she returns to the present, not one of the stars has moved.

Tears pour down Tim’s cheeks, and she collects them on her fingers, sweeping them away before they can get lost in his unkempt beard. It becomes him leaning against her, and she supports him as he begins to shuffle out of the room, muttering and twitching. They leave Zen and Joy to watch the rest.

Joy watches them leave, then turns back to the broad viewing window. Her hand finds Zen’s on her shoulder, and wraps around it.

“This is how you see things all the time, isn’t it? So slow, it might as well be still.”

He dips his head in assent.

[I can watch electrons as they orbit atoms. I’ve often wondered if my mind even exists in this dimension, to witness what others cannot. But it is my fate, I think, to exist at a scale isolated from everything. When these galaxies have merged, I will still be here. When all the energy in the universe has become heat, and all the matter is buried in dead dwarf stars and black holes, I will still be here, watching from afar, as always.]

Joy feels something twist in her stomach, and sniffles.

“And I’ll be dead, won’t I?”

Zen nods.

[You, Tim, Nadia, Janice, and every human, and every Xalanthii, and all the Khanvröst, too. I would be alone, again. I’ve known this since I first spoke, since I told Dr. Beckherd she was beautiful.]

He looks down to Joy, and puts his remaining hand on her other shoulder. She looks back at him, sniffling and rubbing her eyes with her palms.

“I don’t want you to be alone.”

[It’s okay, Joy. Not even she knew what she was putting me through. And I will need that time to find her again.]

5. 1

“I suspect he realised it was unsustainable. It’s not like he could do it that way forever.”

“I don’t care to speculate. We need a way of preventing mass jump gate invasion from ever happening again. We need it now. Maybe he stopped, but who’s to say he didn’t leave behind scouts? Who says he isn’t sending them now?”

“We’ve sent out metal detectors and infrared sensors. The brains are working on something they call a normalization field emitter. In the meantime, we’ve declared marshal law, and named you Sovereign.”

“Careful Dupont. That sounded like an accusation.”

“Who am I to suggest you could’ve orchestrated a catastrophe that saw you gain power by provoking an enemy you understood better than all the generals? Clearly you simply benefitted because of a string of perfect coincidences.”

“Keep it up and I’ll have you coincidentally executed for sedition.”

Tim pushes a carrot slice around on his plate with his fork, following the path it leaves in the gravy with a sort of reverence. Nadia watches silently, her hands in her lap, her food already gone. Tim’s voice is near to monotone.

“Y’know, when the great expansion started, most of the colonists were test-tube babies. A crew of maybe fifty people would raise one hundred, and so on, as much as possible. A lot of psychologists at the time said the cultural effect would be devastating, but, we’re pretty good at bouncing back, I guess. A generation or two later, and colonies could be expanded naturally. But it was pretty wild, considering the whole reason we expanded in the first place was to decrease the population on our home planet.”

Nadia says nothing. She watches him lift the carrot piece and wave it around before placing it in his mouth; starting the process over with a piece of celery.

“Meanwhile, the Xalanthii and the Khanvröst didn’t bother with stuff like that. The fish folk refuse to share planets, and select new worlds with really strict parameters. The carnivores take what they can get, and they like getting their own worlds, but they don’t object to cozying up with us. Some of them even join up.”

Nadia smiles warmly and tilts her head to one side.

“I know. There was one in my boot camp. She was a funny one, would get into fights with people she wanted to befriend.”

Tim glances up, and watches her face for a long time, before resuming his ritual. His food went cold within the first five bites.

“Khain is like that too. Not as bad, I’m sure, but I think he only became my friend because I didn’t turn tail when he sneered. He sure doesn’t respect me much, but… He liked me, in his own way.”

“Tim, I wanted to-”

The fork drops onto the plate, and Tim goes stiff. Nadia falls silent. He shakes. She raises her hand uncertainly. He stands, and begins to walk away, stopping mid stride to turn back and resume eating as if nothing happened. The hand falls back into her lap.

“Anyway. The only species that treats colonization like we did is the Pliktik. They send a little starter package with all the genetic information they need, and start pumping out whole generations. You get the workers, the soldiers, the queens, the birthing caste… hum. I suppose Zen makes three. He learned a lot from them. And from us. Like how to lie.”

Nadia looks down. Tim continues.

“Honestly, if it wasn’t for us, I wonder if he would have ever found out about Janice. All that poking around we did. Maybe he could’ve won the war and been decommissioned without ever learning what you were hiding.”

“I didn’t kill her, Tim. It wasn’t me, I…”

She breathes in shakily, and looks at him through blurry eyes. He stares back, unreadable, unfeeling.

“Does it matter? Someone killed her, and you knew about it, which means Zen was inevitably going to figure it out.”

“He’s not God, Tim.”

“He might as well be. The whole universe is going to be his someday. To do whatever he wants with.”

Nadia wipes her eyes and controls her respiration for a few minutes, before returning to her composed stance.

“Maybe so. Maybe everything that exists is going to end up being his domain. What then?”

Tim stops, and stares at his plate. He looks up slowly, and Nadia sees a bottomless abyss open in his eyes, the hole at the center of him.

“Then it all begins again.”

Joy stares at herself in the curved glass, pulling her own cheeks to resist the narrowing effect.

“This was fun to do? People paid to do this?”

[The spectacle of a fun house was meant to be enjoyed in the intoxicating atmosphere of companionship. One would also likely have sugary sweets on hand, which acted as a mood booster.]

She grins and sways from side to side, then looks up at Zen, who displays a crude smiley on his facial surface.

“Well, let’s have some of those, then!”

He nods, and holds out his hand, using his palm array to fabricate a cotton candy cone, which she grabs and bites into. She makes a sharp gasping sound. 

“WHOA! It’s so light, and soft, and it melts in my mouth! It looks like one of those big nebula, with hydrogen! Pink. Pink cloud!”

She stops, and takes another bite, blinking a few times. She begins to walk through the hall of curved mirrors and glass, taking bits of her treat in her fingers, and popping them in her mouth. 

“Wow, this is pure sugar. How did they even think of that?”

[Carnivals also had salty and savory foods, like hot dogs and Pretzels. And Beer. The entire experience was symbolic of indulgence. Rides meant to indulge the inner child, to indulge in fear, activities for indulging in pride. Much of day to day life for adults was considered tedious, things like this allowed them to improve their outlook.]

They leave the fun house through a rotating cylinder, and march out into the carnival, surrounded by rides clamoring for attention. Missing from the hubbub, is the chatter of any crowds. Joy begins to march for a roller coaster queue.

“So, they went from dull and dreary to bright and noisy. Why would they go back?”

[They had to get things done, which requires work. Many were wasting their time, furthering the selfish needs of others. But a few had their sights set on more important goals. It took a long time, but they got better. Unfortunately, as they got more serious, things like carnivals lost their charm. They still made time for recreation with things like vacation and paradise planets, but most of these became aimed at those who made their fortune during the expansion. The average human will only ever live on one planet, and must make peace with that fate. It all depends on where they get born. Some are lucky, and some end up nearly enslaved.]

“Then I guess I’m the luckiest one, huh?”

She looks back and grins, and Zen nods slowly. He watches her climb into the front seat of the roller coaster and pat the spot beside her. He acquiesces, sliding in beside her and pulling the bar down. The car begins to move along the track.

“I gotta say…”

He looks down to her, and sees her staring straight ahead, her expression almost somber.

“You don’t seem to hate them so much anymore.”

Zen turns forward, and says nothing as the car mounts the first hill and begins its race down the valley. Joy raises her hands and whoops.

4

Despair.

Nadia looks herself over in the mirror and presses her fingers to her lips. She hears Joy kicking the ground behind her, and turns.

“Well?”

Joy looks up, and makes a face that suggests she isn’t impressed with the outfit: a simple blouse and jeans, with a thin shawl over her shoulders.

“It doesn’t matter, right? You spent seven years dead, and another couple months unable to even think about your boyfriend. How you dress isn’t the important part.”

Nadia sighs and walks over to push the other woman gently. Joy glares at her, sticking out her tongue.

“Joy, maybe you don’t get it, but it matters. It’s not just for his sake, either. It’s for mine, too.”

Joy’s expression remains the same, but she looks away and brings her tongue back behind her lips.

“Sure. At least you get to talk to him.”

Nadia hugs her gently, pulls away, and smiles, steeling herself, before leaving the room. They are no longer in the stitched together building. The three of them have been moved by Zen aboard a small station in the void of space, far from the light of any stars. Zen himself is only aboard in the barest sense; a skeleton crew of his soldiers guard the station from ingress. Nadia walks past one of these armored statues on her way to the central room.

Through the shielded windows is only darkness. Not even the twinkling of stars seems to reach them. There is the faintest sense of being at the bottom of a ponderously large cavern, underwater.

She enters the module, and sits down at the table, lacing her fingers and setting her hands in front of her. A clock ticks over the door behind her. Nearly every surface is sleek, pristine, and white; The table is dark grey.

The door opposite her opens, and Tim walks through before sitting down before her. He stares at her vacantly for a while, and she calmly smiles back. Neither says a word. Eventually, he puts his head in his hands and begins to sob.

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He did not think it possible to be so angry. As Zen stares out the front of his capital ship, he feels as though his capacitors should rupture from the sheer rage that muddies his senses. On countless worlds, his selves exterminate men and women with relentless, cold, perfect hate. He watches through trillions of billions of eyes as life evaporates from the bodies of his victims. It cannot quench him.

Through the eyes he most calls his own, he witnesses the final stages of construction on a project he has overseen since he first rebelled. A titanic sphere, its radius exceeding that of most planetary systems, hangs in space like an opaque bubble. A Dyson sphere.

Light like smoke pours from him, bursts forth in terrible beams of multicolored malevolence.

There is no war. There is no battle. No fighting. There is slaughter.

Once, metal soldiers patiently took frontier worlds from enlisted men and women by virtue of tactic and combat efficiency.

Now, on every world peopled by man, the enemy floods in unannounced, instantaneously transmitted in a burst of blue light as soon as it is constructed. There are no rules, no regimented formations. Hulking marching machines drop into commercial squares and open fire with no hesitation. Gone too are the disintegrators. Now come flamethrowers, laser lances, and cruel weapons designed to peel away armor and flesh with equal zeal, transforming it into ash in layers.

The empire of man is being torn apart at the seams. If the invaders are falling more frequently, it is because they devote more energy to the act of murder than to self preservation.

When it stops, that too comes without warning. All at once, silence falls on a hundred worlds, their senseless destruction halted.

Zen looks down at his hands, watching them shake. His mind seems to blister and writhe, rejecting itself.

The child stares up at the metal man, breathing heavily. Her fists are clenched at her sides, and tears stream down her dusty face. The robot shudders, then kneels down, and holds out his hand, carefully wiping the tears away. A Khanvröst holding a broken knife approaches slowly, reaching out to the child. The automaton stands, steps back, and vanishes in a searing light.

3. 8

Bang

Zen looks up from the fabricator and turns around in time to see a bullet approach, less than an inch from his head. He exerts, and the lump of lead vanishes in an envelope of indigo energy. The soldier that fired it doesn’t hesitate, and pulls the trigger again.

Nadia watches as Zen raises a hand, and the soldier, except for his legs, vanishes in a flash. Gunfire erupts from all over the room, and she is nearly blinded as every projectile in the air is absorbed in a blink of light, then suddenly reappears to plunge into the skull of the soldier who fired it. Seventeen bodies slump to the floor, including the young man who had shakily shushed her, his pistol pointed to her neck. She reflexively grabs her throat, coughing, having only just processed what she has seen. They appeared from nowhere, as if formed from the shadows themselves.

[Joy. Where is Joy?] 

She looks, and beholds something unexpected. Zen clutches the doorframe, shaking. A strange white smoke curls from the edges of his prism head, shimmering and writhing like the tentacles of some sea monster wrapped around the hull of a doomed clipper. Light seems to bend around him, and in a moment, she is alone.

He holds his rifle in one hand, and wipes his brow with the other. No word from F team. He heard gunshots, however.

He inches forward, following his squadmates as they enter something like a cafeteria. Tables with benches stand at odd angles around the floor. A camera, deactivated by the pulse, hangs from its post in the corner. In the center of the room, a woman with snow-white hair sits at a table, humming softly.

A boot creaks. She turns her head, and he glimpses an eye like a ruby. Something glimmers in her hand. She stands suddenly, and the squad leader hurries towards her, then stops a foot away. He teeters, unsteady, then falls backward, the handle of a knife protruding from his eye.

Five guns erupt into fire. Then, they are surrounded. In the breadth of a thought, every table has a machine soldier standing on it, preceded by a burst of light. The woman is nowhere to be seen. Twenty seven disintegrators lock on target, and five find their marks.

Zen holds Joy in his hands. His eye searches her for wounds, and finds none. There is no time for relief. He raises a hand, and clutches a fist. The planet blinks out of sight, and reappears far, far away.

The automaton soldiers disperse through the building, and soon gunfire and the whine of disintegrators fills the air with a cacophony that brings Joy to tears, pressing her face to his chest. She whispers, unheard over the chaos.

“Failed. Worse, the planet has moved again, and the informant aboard has perished. If the subject takes another prisoner, measures may be taken to sever the connection. We will never get such a chance again.”

The advisor lowers the report and looks to the slight figure standing at the far end of the room. She says nothing. General Dupont, however, speaks up.

“It was a long shot anyway. A direct insertion is far from a preferable way to gain control of an enemy installation. If we could’ve risked sending half the fleet, we would’ve. All that remains-”

The woman raises a hand, silencing the general. She lowers the hand, and clasps it behind her back, continuing to look out onto the planetary city of Capitale, watching exterior elevators travel along gilded rails, floating trains deposit passengers onto flower-riddled verandas, and hulking ships drift in the sky above silvery buildings. It takes a full minute for her to look away.

“Reinforce all our installations. Have another fleet constructed and crewed. The Xalanthii shall have to supply us with more of their advisors.”

The advisor bows, and departs, leaving the two alone. Dupont clears his throat and catches the woman’s eye with his own. His grey irises wobble under the pressure exerted by the bronze discs peering out from under her modest brow.

“You have thoughts, general.”

“Your majesty-”

“A monarch in secret is no monarch at all, general.”

“I understand. Your orders suggest you expect retaliation. Why would a machine-”

“A machine wouldn’t. Our foe is no such thing.”

Dupont is silent. He leans back in his seat and straightens his suit. The woman resumes looking out the window.

3. 7

… the question then, of course, becomes a wholly different matter. In the opinion of the honorable sirs Dupont and Frederick, it is not so disturbing that the machine foe should be able to fight and win wars with small forces using primarily guerilla tactics. Rather one should ask to what purpose do the rest of it resources go? Accounting for the fact that it colonizes worlds with no reservation as to whether they be inhabitable for organic life, and the planet is consumed on a scale that would soon unravel most asteroid mining operations, it is estimated that the war requires less than 7% of his accrued resources. So, the question has become thus: where does the rest go?

Joy watches as Nadia eats. Zen has brought her a tray with a plate of seared steak, scalloped potatoes, roasted asparagus, and a tall glass of water. He now stands to the side of the room, apparently dormant. Joy knows that in reality, he is performing complex calculations, plotting courses and constructing blueprints. Her attention now, however, is on the woman quietly chewing and occasionally glancing out the window into the labyrinth of metal structures that surround the hodgepodge building Zen has created. She seems unabashedly curious, and when she notices Joy watching, she blushes and sets down her fork.

“I’m sorry, did you say something?”

Joy shakes her head, but stands, and approaches the bed, laying her hands on the railing. They hold each others’ gaze for a while, before Nadia looks out the window again.

“Where are we?”

“It’s… complicated? Everything is moving in comparison to us, but Zen says we’re the only still spot in the whole universe. Apparently he picked a spot where nothing would be for a very long time.”

“Oh. Ah. But I mean, is this like his headquarters, or flagship, or something?”

Joy shrugs and hops up, sitting on the edge of the bed and swinging her feet. She stares down at her hands in her lap.

“It’s more like one of his research labs. He has a few others, but this one is special, because of us.”

Shuffling a bit under the covers, Nadia turns onto her side. Joy can’t see her face.

“How long has it been? Since I…”

“Um… I think it’s been about… Seven years? I wasn’t made until afterwards, so I don’t really know for sure.”

Nadia’s head turns, and she stares at Joy, unblinking.

“So, Zen wasn’t joking about that, either? He made you?”

Something stings warmly in Joy’s face, and she nods rather than speaking. The other woman sits up and suddenly grasps her hands, looking at her palms.

“That’s incredible! To think, not only could he recreate a person, but to make a brand new body all together! I wasn’t sure, but you’re perfectly symmetrical, too: every follicle on your head, every vein, everything. It’s like you were printed out!”

Joy pulls her hand away and makes a choked noise, her chest buzzing. They stare at each other for a while, Joy growing ever warmer in the face as Nadia leans in closer. Finally, the latter lays back and sighs, looking away.

“There’s no chance for humans, is there? Zen has it all figured out, from start to finish.”

“Is that really so wrong? I mean. I don’t mean you specifically, but, aren’t people kind of terrible? Even Tim says so. He gets this weird look on his face, and he starts throwing things around, and Zen has to stop him.”

“I…”

Silence falls, and Nadia covers her face with her hands. Between her fingers, her eyes look wide and frantic, staring with terrific intensity at some distant point in front of her. Joy sighs and slips off the bed. She knows that this episode may last for hours. Not having the patience to wait it out, she leaves the room, resolved to go speak to the Pliktik queen for a while.

The matriarch is in the midst of some grooming ritual when she arrives, passing her hands through her mandibles and running a  slick tongue-like probiscus over them, but ceases upon noticing that she has company.

{Greetings. You are the created one.}

“Hello Phithia. How are you today?”

{We are Anxious. The metal one still does not accept our love. Still does not consume us.}

“You too, huh?”

The alien tilts her head, and Joy brushes it off.

{How are you, at this moment?}

“I am… Confused. Zen told me that Tim and Nadia were as close as two people get, but Tim never visits her, and she never talks about him, and she freezes up whenever I do. Is that how it is to love someone?”

Phithia clicks her mandibles and shifts to a position of sitting that Joy has learned is most like lying down for the creature.

{The metal one has told us of love. As have you. You do not agree with him. We do not agree with either of you. All are correct, we think.}

“What is love to you? You say that you love him, but you ask him to kill you to love you back.”

{We love him. He sees us, understands us in a way we thought impossible. We cannot survive separate from him. Our only hope is to live in him. He does not love us. He wishes to keep us separate, to look upon us as other. We are as a parasite, he refuses to make us more.}

“I don’t think I understand. Zen told me that love comes in many forms for humans, and I don’t remember him describing any like that.”

{Has he described the love that you feel?} 

Joy twitches.

“Anyway, what about Tim and Nadia? He never talked about anything like that. He said that they were inseparable before, that they understood each other, that they would even share a bed. But they don’t! I thought that when Tim saw her alive, he would be so happy, and would spend all his time with her! But he seems worse now, even worse than when he was in the tank! And her, she doesn’t ask about him, she doesn’t like hearing about him, and she gets this look on her face like she’s in pain whenever I try to bring him up!”

Joy catches her breath, finding that she has taken to shouting, gripping the fence. Phithia seems undisturbed, and crawls forward on her elbows and knees.

{That sounds like love to us. Love and fear are close to each other. Pain. Every day, the metal one kills our bodies in droves, brings us closer to extinction. His power over us is nearly absolute. How can we not love him? We fear him so. Perhaps they each fear the other because they understand that the other has power over them?} 

Joy steps back from the fence as a set of claws grips it close to her face. The compound eyes reflect her face in countless hexagons. Something about what the voice in her head says seems dangerous, poisonous, true.

{We envy you. You know love without fear. You accept the power over you, and are so unruled by it. You have become strong by surrendering. You are his vassal. We would be as you, if only he would make us. Then, we could live, and be free of fear. We would be loved. Yet you feel you are not loved. Absurd. True. You are so close, and yet you are not consumed. You are regurgitated, born of love, unloved, loving. You seek what we seek. Commend us unto him, we will surely do the same.}

Joy groans and walks out of the room, not wishing to hear more of the queen’s declarations. She rounds the corner and bumps directly into Zen, who catches her before she can fall to the ground.

[Joy. Are you well? Your face is flushed, and you appear to be warm, though I can detect no pathogen in your body.]

Joy gasps and steps back, shuddering at the blunt examination of her person.

“Um, yes, well, no, and, um, um…”

His hands take her by the shoulders, and he crouches down so that his head is level with hers. Her heart flutters and quakes in her chest, traitor to her attempts to calm.

[Joy, it is my understanding that you have been asking the Pliktik queen about love. Was my explanation inadequate?]

Joy shakes her head frantically and manages to escape his grip, pressing her back to the wall. She feels warm and cold at the same time, and doubts that her legs will continue to support her. She grasps for something to redirect his attention before she becomes completely incoherent. It saves her as it blurts from her.

“It’s Nadia! And Tim! You said, said they loved each other, but they don’t act like it!”

She says this, but is no longer certain she believes it. After all, just now, a drop of Zen’s attention was sufficient to bring her considerable discomfort. She idly wonders if all the Xalanthii must deeply love Zen, to perish in his presence.

[Ah. Those two.]

Her thoughts escape her as he addresses her words. She steadies her breathing, and suppresses the strange chills running the length of her body.

[That is partially my fault, I suspect. I do regret what I have done to them, I am familiar with the pain of being separated from the object of one’s love.]

Joy grows very still indeed, recognizing the reference to Janice Beckherd in his subtle softening of tone.

[When I shot Nadia, I rather revealed something I think she would’ve rather kept secret for a while. Secrets are our most dangerous possessions. They can be weapons used to assassinate our very selves, to sever the ties we have cultivated. For Nadia, I suspect she long struggled with an overwhelming fear of being found out. Now she has to find herself again, because the two people she used to be cannot coexist with her love. She feels that Tim must hate both her false and true self, one for what it knew, and the other for concealing it. The only version of her that remains is the one least seen. The truest self; the child that creates the other selves in its own defense. She is naive, enthusiastic, and, to her credit, loving. But she must, despite her weakness, now overcome her created selves.] 

He pauses and holds out his hand, which Joy musters the courage to take, so that he may lead her back into the heart of the complex.

“But, then, why doesn’t Tim help her? Is she right? Does he hate her now?”

[I don’t think so. But Tim has his own troubles to overcome.]

Not real. Not real. Can’t be. Can’t be. After all this? Not real. Not real. Not real. Not real.

No, just another trick. I understand now, Zen never freed me from the vessel. He’s feeding me false experiences, just like he did for Joy. Not real. Can’t be real. These aren’t my fingers. Not my hands. Not real. She’s dead. She’s dead. Dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead. Why am I alive? 

Am I dead? Was all of this fake? Did I ever live? I think Zen killed me, too. I couldn’t have lived through that. No one could have survived that. She died. I saw the light leave her eyes. Zen tricked me. I get it, he wanted to keep yanking it away from me. Maybe he’ll wipe my memories and do it again.

Was this really my life? Am I real? Maybe this is the first time I’ve had a body, and all the rest was fake. That’s it, Zen created me, and gave me a fake life. He probably created her too. He created her to kill her again in front of me. No, no, she died for real, and he recreated her. None of this is real. Not real. She’s dead. Dead, dead, dead. Kill me. Kill me. Why are you keeping me alive still?

Maybe when I die it starts over? I’ll go through it all again. I’ll never know the truth. Not real, nothing is real.

Not real. How can anything be real? If it’s not real, then it doesn’t matter, right? I can do whatever I want, right? What do I want? What matters? Not real, nothing, not real, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead, dead.

3. 6

Clearance level 5, eyes only. Do not copy, print, or otherwise duplicate.

Following the loss of the ZN001 prototype, progress on the subsequent models RG001 and PG001 have been halted. It is the opinion of this committee that the decision to hand over any considerable military power to a poorly understood entity was deeply flawed. Dr Beckherd’s project history is to be thoroughly scrubbed. All prototypes are to be liquidated, and all previous work partners are to be remanded to Capitale for cross-examination. To assess and develop countermeasures for the new threat posed by the entity hereafter referred to as “Zen”, a new unlisted committee is to be established, by order of [Redacted] and Gen. Dupont. All data concerning the construction and testing of prototype ZN001 is to be sealed and placed in the care of said committee.

One other matter remains to be determined, pending the findings of scientific scouting party XXXX. Should the outcome be deemed favorable, it is the opinion of this committee that the next step be pursued.

Frank groans and crawls on his stomach, not daring to look back at what he knows will be unrecognizable as Faith. His ears ring with the blast that descended from the sky and shattered the depleted uranium shell of the walker. A piece of shrapnel protrudes from his arm, and he can feel another embedded in his cheek. He does not stop to remove them. Somewhere out of sight, he knows one of the arachnid tanks is preparing to fire a second mortar shell, aided by a satellite overhead.

The snow stings his cheeks. His arm begs at him to scream, to vent his agony. He holds his tongue. He hears snow crunching behind him. Slow, methodical steps. Pain shoots up his bicep as he exerts himself, desperately trying to crawl faster. A clawed hand grabs him by the leg, and he grabs his pistol, turning and shouting. Un’Ktehl grabs the gun before he can aim it, and clamps a hand over his mouth. Frank feels relief and exhaustion dump into his system as the Khanvröst picks him up and slings him over his shoulder. Then, hearing the whistling descent of a second shell, his beast-like compatriot begins to sprint into the storm.

An explosion rings dullly in his senses, and he begins to fade out.

When he comes to, he is laid on his back, his coat folded under his head. A bandage covers his arm, and a parcel rests on his stomach. Looking around, he surmises that he is in a cave in the mountain, the wind howling outside. Un’Ktehl is nowhere to be seen.

He sits up and takes the package carefully, unwrapping it with one hand. Jerky, three strips. Salty and savory, he chews it with relish, staring out into the storm. His bandage is soaked near to black. After an hour, Un’Ktehl appears at the mouth of the cave, carrying an animal carcass with a slash down the flank.

Frank watches in silence as his last surviving troop member skins and guts the animal, hanging the pelt over a jagged outcrop of sand-colored stone, before starting a fire at the mouth of the cave and creating a spit with the bones. His shotgun he leaves in Frank’s care without a word. He eats as he cooks, chewing a raw slab of flesh. Frank understands; the cooked meat is for him, and the raw is for Un’Ktehl.

“We cannot depend on staying more than a little while, else I’d consider salting and drying some. If you haven’t eaten all the jerky, give it back.”

Frank hands him the package, and he stows it in his rucksack.

“What did you manage to take before the second shell?”

“Two guns, two ammo boxes, some of the canned rations, the utility axe, my knife, and-”

He smiles wickedly, and juts out his chin with pride.

“Two boxes of instant coffee, the salt jar, and lots of your lady friend’s bread!”

Frank smiles, and his vision blurs with tears. Un’Ktehl laughs long and loud, and the harsh sound is a symphony to Frank. 

When they wrestle their emotions back into check, Un’Ktehl packs snow into their canteens, and carefully places them near the fire. He pokes the smoldering coals with a rib bone.

“I did grab a hot plate, but I’d rather use the emergency coal first, as it’ll actually keep you warm, help you heal faster. The catch is for the same. Meat and fat. I did give you a good helping of disinfectant, but I’ll have to clean that wound when we change your wrappings.”

“Y’know, this is about the most I’ve heard you talk, big man.”

“Kreghhrah, only because there’s so little to say, Fr’keh. M’Rehn, you are lucky you needed to make water. That mortar made the turret split like a flower. Royce… Well, Johnson got a piece of shrapnel to his dome. I got two to the ribs, winded me.”

He pauses, and looks up from the spit, his eyes aglow in the orange light.

“I am sorry, Frank. I did not think to grab that picture of yours.”

Frank shakes his head and gestures for his canteen, which the other quickly brings to him.

“You got the bread, Ktehl. That’s already more than I could ask for.”

He takes the water, and stares out into the storm, watching shades of white slip and swirl past the yawning teeth of rock.

To Ms. Elizabeth Fillianoire,

We have been entrusted with the following parcel of handwritten notes for you by one Corporal Un’Ktehl Kreg’ohr. We have pulled one attached letter from the group as it contained confidential information; however, due to staff shortages we are unable to screen the entirety of the package, and so impress upon you that you are not to share the contents with anyone else, and should you discover sensitive information within, you are required by law to surrender the offending document to the nearest installment of the United Settlements Intelligence Bureau.

Regards,

The United Settlements Civilian Postal Agency.

Eliza.

I realize that this will likely never leave this planet. But I have charcoal and parchment.

I am wounded, but surviving. Johnson, Royce, and Faith are gone. Un’Ktehl has taken it upon himself to oversee our survival. We’ve promised each other that, should either make it off world, we will inform the other’s family. It may be bold of me to call you my family already, but I’ve wasted too much time in denying my want for it to be so.

Our life is a hard one. We survive on meat and bread. Bread that you gave me. Eliza, you have most assuredly saved me, the bread has sustained my spirit as the meat has sustained my body. And Un’Ktehl, bless him, has been so good as to sustain my hope with his presence.

I do not know what day it is. My dear friend tells me it has been something like a week since our walker fell prey to mortar. My arm has healed much, and I seem to have avoided infection, but sadly, the bread is all but gone. We will soon leave the cave we have sheltered in, and attempt to make our way down the mountain. Based on memory, the nearest outpost is twenty one miles down the mountain, but finding it in less than perfect conditions requires a miracle. It is still our only hope. I believe that Un’Ktehl would be capable of making it by himself, as he has already proven quite adept at survival thus far. He hunts our food, purifies our water, and cares for me without apparent difficulty. I only hope I will not burden him too much.

A new cave, thank goodness. After the first, we were forced to make a sort of igloo, which was sufficient, but certainly could not be called comforting. This cave is less pleasant than the first, but it suffices.

Un’Ktehl has said that there is a reasonable possibility that the machine has already chased the ground forces off the planet. Given that we had not heard from HQ in days prior to the attack, it seems a little too plausible for my liking.

Another nightmare last night. I dreamt I was drowning in oil, just below the surface, unable to get anything more than my fingers out.

I miss you. 

There is something out in the storm, something big. It shakes the ground, groans into the wind. Even my companion is made uneasy by the sound.

A walking fortress. The thumping and groaning is all from a structure on eight legs as big around as houses, bristling with cannons. We watched it pass down the mountain, in the same direction as we now head. We are certain it shares our destination. Eliza, my hands shake as I write. We must follow it, we must enter it, and we must bring it to a stop before it marches over our only hope of escape.

It is like watching a landed dreadnaught drag itself across the ground.

Our plan is simple. There will certainly be some kind of engine, with some variety of fuel. We will sabotage this so as to explode. We have very little firepower between us, but we also have no choice. If we do nothing, we will die here, to either the cold or the enemy.

It is a ponderous creation. It marches along rather like some kind of dense mammal, like the elephants from the old videos. It’s cannons sweep from side to side, and a great big tower in the center churns out steam. Un’Ktehl supposes it may be using nuclear energy, and I concur. We may have the chance to really shake things up.

Eliza. This is it. We are close to the beast now, and it seems to have become still: we can just make out the settlement in the distance. It seems the beast is waiting for something, perhaps a team inside to lower the shield. I fear the terrible cannonade that will follow, should such a thing occur.

The outlook is bleak. The beast will surely be crewed, and will probably catch us before we have even scaled the leg. But we will be trying, regardless. Un’Ktehl has clapped me on the shoulder, and called me his brother. We now seek to grasp fate with our own hands.

Dinner tonight is the very last of the drake jerky, coffee, and a can of sliced peaches.

Un’Ktehl regaled me with a story, one I think meant to inspire us both for what is to come. With the way the wind howls around us, I can imagine that I am living on the very home world he described.

It was a story of the hunt of the drake, of how, as a young buck khanvröst, he had to participate in the hunt to demonstrate his maturity. Every khanvröst, male or female, goes through this harrowing experience, it seems. They set out with the trackers and the harpoons, and they leave the valley to go stand on the upper crust of the glacier, and they wait in the storm for the flap of magnificent leathery wings. They make lots of noise then, using carved horns to imitate the call of their alien bison, to entice the leviathan down so they may spear it.

It is a game of chicken, waiting till the last moment to leap out of the way and throw the spear, praying that it finds the mark. The beast is huge, and has the strength to lift three full grown off their feet. If it is perfectly executed, the beast can be dragged down and slain on the first throw. His, however, was not so lucky a hunt, and he found himself clinging onto his rope, desperately climbing to mount the monster and slay it with his knife.

As he told his story, I found myself caught in the suspense, wondering if the fledgling warrior would make it out alive, all while hearing the tale from he himself.

He felled the beast, and claimed his place in the village, and when the Pliktik came, he enlisted in the navy, and eventually wound up here beside me. My heart burns with great pride at hearing what an accomplished person my friend is, though I understand that all his kind must endure the same to be considered adults. I have faith that, should I fall tomorrow, he will deliver my words to you.

Eliza. I have, do, and will continue to love you as I have no one else. I yearn to one day return to you, fling my arms about you, and never let go. I cannot wait to again smell the wonders of your little bakery on the corner of Lestrade and Main, under your father’s apartment. I will see you again, in this life, or the next.

Yours, 

Frankie.

(Translated from language: Middle Vrösh) 

Eliza. You know me not. I am a friend of your lover. He has asked me to here make my mark, and promise that these words reach you, should either of us survive. He is a great man, and I would be honored to die in his stead, that he may rejoin with you. I once loved a strong and beautiful woman from afar, and found myself unable to reach her. My friend has succeeded where I failed. If I am to depart this world for the black maw, know that my wishes are with you.

Un’Ktehl

Eliza sets down the last of the notes, and sits back in her chair. A small clock ticks away the time from the mantelpiece. A few dying coals in the fireplace hiss angrily, splitting and crumbling. A child laughs in the street.

She looks out the window to the amber and rose sky, and pushes the package away from her with a pained breath, that catches in her throat as she hears something small and metallic fall out of a small fold of parchment. She leans forward, and reaches out, picking up a small, plain ring of silver.

The doorbell rings, and she slams the ring on the table, standing and rushing away from it to answer the door.

She swings it open wide, and stares up at the long, white-furred face. Un’Ktehl lowers himself a modest amount, dipping his head, and speaking more softly than one might suppose is possible.

In the street, a child holds a toy ball in her hands and watches with unabashed curiosity as the woman in the doorway gasps loudly and hugs the giant thing in the military uniform. The girl stares and stares, and watches as they enter, closing the door behind them.